hope and happyness through paperwalls

Since the beginning of my summer, I began to think about things that had happened to my life this past year.  The people that came and eventually went,the many unexpected things that i wasn't able to think that can happen,even in my imagination..though its hard, I had many realizations and acceptances about my short life here in earth. .

This year, im beginning my college life,more people to meet and more responsibilities await me. I became very busy about the field I chose but i think Im doing a great job in balancing my new friends, old friends, my family and studies.

I don't know if I'm late or now is just a right time for this, but its just now that I have made up my mind with my goals in life. My vision on what I want myself to look like in three months and for ten years. I realized that I must have short term and long term goals. The long term goals are some things big while the short term goals are what will keep you busy and excited everyday.

"For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?"(Mark 8:36). For the last months I became an active prayer, everything I do, I make it sure that I am doing it with God. But these past few days are becoming worst and worst....One thing that I'm happy about what I have become now is that every thought becomes a cycle, I'll have a thought, then be negative about it but later on, learning that it has a purpose..so everything ends with a prayer now. 

though its hard living without you

and waking up is hard to do

from the dream i thought came true

im trying to make it through

here i am truly missing you

but what can i do? i have to

i have to do things on my own

earlier, i should've known

that we were not meant to be

and you were just defrauding me

now that the storms are over

and i am no more a sober

my sweetest revenge is to live merry

no matter how much you're sorry

the paradise lost is now found

happiness will soon come around

as i lay me down to bed at night

when no one is watching

there is this sadness that drowns my soul

anxiety that never stops till it reaches my bones

being all alone with no light scares me

becoming weak and vulnerable is all i can be

after a while, dusk comes

there goes the happy sun

bringing hope of the new tomorrow

it ends my emotions and sorrow

i can feel God's warmth and caress

through the beams of light before my eyes

after the night's despair

holding on to His promises is all that i can do

to make it through the night

and in mornings, ill delight!