Tuesday, October 27, 2009
When I woke up this morning, some things are now different. My mom isn't yelling at me telling me to do things or go up from bed atleast, my dad is sleeping wth us in our room leaving the master's bedroom empty, I got a passing grade from my Accounting subject, I have a new schedule for this coming semester. Yeah, I can tell, a whole new bunch of stuff is going on.
I have been swimming deeper down under my self-made ocean for a little while letting myself vulnerable until I drowned, I was horrified when I knew, I was leaving in the past. Past people and past events, I have let them conquer my life. I know it's a lame and absurd thing that I must end..I was drowned and merely awackened.
Till last night, I was my daddy's little princess and my mommy's baby, well I am not saying that their princess and baby is gone, but let's say, I'm different now. Experienced. Changed.
I already know how to dream, dream for the future,myself's betterment. The past doesn't stand a chance on holding me back anymore, goodbye my yesteryear. And now I can say, I'm very ecstatic to worry about today's problem that can affect my tomorrow!
Saturday, October 24, 2009
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
fleeting across this jammed mind
in my long misty night
I bid you goodbye
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Isn't it nice to have someone
..whom you know will answer your midnight calls?
..remember your birth date?..your favorite color?
..who take note of the things that you like the most?
..who will never fail to wish you had a good night sleep in the mornings?
well..that's really nice but sometimes.."The love for the unfamiliar and unideal draw people to make strange decisions..".
And sometimes, even if that "perfect and ideal" someone is already in front of you, you switch the game and choose the uncommon one.
I don't like playing safe..
But what is happening now that is somehow pushing me to change my belief?
Yes, I chose the unfamiliar, I stood for what I know was right and would make me happy but it seems like I also chose to be hurt?
I don't know...
May God bless me....
Thursday, October 1, 2009
"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another."