Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear to fall
Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away
Monday, September 21, 2009
precised line in between
the boundaries are too unclear
in the shadows bewildered in fierce
too much of something
candid and oppulent suffering
but staying within invulnerability
torrid remorse and grief
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
I have crossed a thousand bridges
In my search for something real
There were great suspension bridges
Made like spider webs of steel
There were tinny wooden trestles
And there were bridges made of stone
I have always been a stranger and
I've always been alone
There's a bridge to tomorrow
There's a bridge to the past
There's a bridge made of sorrow
That I pray will not last
There's a bridge made of color
In the sky high above
And I pray that there must be
Bridges made out of love
I can see him in the distance
On the river's other shore
And his arms reach out in longing
As my own have done before
And I call across to tell him
Where I believe the bridge must lie
And I'll find it
Yes I'll find it
If I search until I die
When the bridges is between us
We'll have nothing to say
We will run thru the sunlight
And he'll meet me halfway
There's a bridge made of color
In the sky high above
And I know that there must be
Bridges made out of love
I like this song very much!~
*there were lots of bridges i wish i could cross*
Saturday, September 12, 2009
You came to my life
When I didn't know how love can change my thoughts
Had so many doubts
Because I heard you broke somebody's heart
You light up my days
And suddenly love has captured my heart
But my dreams were young
That's the reason why we fell apart
When your eyes met mine
I knew you were the one
And I hope that one day we will find us back to love
Believe in me...
Just hold on...
Someday we will find love
Where there's no concealing
Where we will shine, love
Where our hearts will take us in our journey to life
When your eyes met mine
I knew you were the one
And I hope that one day we will find us back to love
To love...
music and lyrics by:
Olivia (Gentle Jazz)
Saturday, September 5, 2009
I now have goals and dreams about my tomorrow...but how can I know if those goals are the right goals or should I say the path that would lead me to God's great plan ?Am I going to the right way or should I go on a detour?
"Begin with the end in mind" is to begin today with the paradigm of the end of your life as frame of reference or the criterion by which everything else is examined. Each part of your life's today can be examined in the context of the whole, of what really matters most to you. To begin with the end in mind means to start with a clear understanding of your destination. It means to know where you are going so that you better understand where you are now so you can go to the right way towards the right direction.
All things are created twice...There is a mental or first creation, then a physical or second creation where you make your plans into actions.
Friday, September 4, 2009
wow....I can not believe on what I have become now. It has really been a hell yeah of a ride!
I'm not as optimistic like this before,
I don't get along with people like this before,
I don't set my goals like this before,
I don't make decisions like this before,
I don't appreciate things and people like this before,
I haven't loved myself this much before,
I haven't prayed this much before.
Indeed, great things will come, we just have to wait. Optimism blooms in the midst of pessimism. Changes will come after the crisis, because you will be much stronger and seasoned by time and experience!
More changes to come!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Since the beginning of my summer, I began to think about things that had happened to my life this past year. The people that came and eventually went,the many unexpected things that i wasn't able to think that can happen,even in my imagination..though its hard, I had many realizations and acceptances about my short life here in earth. .
This year, im beginning my college life,more people to meet and more responsibilities await me. I became very busy about the field I chose but i think Im doing a great job in balancing my new friends, old friends, my family and studies.
I don't know if I'm late or now is just a right time for this, but its just now that I have made up my mind with my goals in life. My vision on what I want myself to look like in three months and for ten years. I realized that I must have short term and long term goals. The long term goals are some things big while the short term goals are what will keep you busy and excited everyday.
"For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?"(Mark 8:36). For the last months I became an active prayer, everything I do, I make it sure that I am doing it with God. But these past few days are becoming worst and worst....One thing that I'm happy about what I have become now is that every thought becomes a cycle, I'll have a thought, then be negative about it but later on, learning that it has a purpose..so everything ends with a prayer now.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
though its hard living without you
and waking up is hard to do
from the dream i thought came true
im trying to make it through
here i am truly missing you
but what can i do? i have to
i have to do things on my own
earlier, i should've known
that we were not meant to be
and you were just defrauding me
now that the storms are over
and i am no more a sober
my sweetest revenge is to live merry
no matter how much you're sorry
the paradise lost is now found
happiness will soon come around
Saturday, August 8, 2009
as i lay me down to bed at night
when no one is watching
there is this sadness that drowns my soul
anxiety that never stops till it reaches my bones
being all alone with no light scares me
becoming weak and vulnerable is all i can be
after a while, dusk comes
there goes the happy sun
bringing hope of the new tomorrow
it ends my emotions and sorrow
i can feel God's warmth and caress
through the beams of light before my eyes
after the night's despair
holding on to His promises is all that i can do
to make it through the night
and in mornings, ill delight!
Friday, June 26, 2009
But I didn't care
I tried being honest
But that left me nowhere
I watched the station
Saw the bus pulling through
And I don't mind saying
A part of me left with you
One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home
Did I make you nervous?
Did I ask for too much?
Was I not deserving one second of your touch?
What would you do if I could have you?
Oh if I could
I'd let you feel everything I'm thinking
Wouldn't that be nice?
One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
FIRE. We all tend to focus our energies on putting out the fire and making sure that it will never come back again. The harder we try, the more painful it is and at some point or another, a fire that has been put out instantly can spark again and become larger than it was before.
Sometimes, we realize that we have fallen into that same trap all over again, once is not enough for some so the past become their present.
Does it worth another shot or do we just let that little spark be extinguished on its own forever?
The lessons from the past can make you stronger, so the next time you can encounter the same thing, you know what to do and handle it like a pro.
But the future is so uncertain, putting your hopes higher can make you fall deeper this time.
Friday, June 5, 2009
In this world, the hardest person to understand is YOURSELF.
It is what it is, it is not what you have planned, it is not what you want to happen but it is what it is.
The future is so uncertain as we all say. We can never know what's in store for us. Failures are common but it is when we fail that we actually learn. There are two kinds of approaches that people tend to make after failure. First is, doing the same thing but expecting a different result. And second, the "hopeless" approach, when all you can think to do is to give up.
In Physics, "The strongest part of an object is at its weakest". Other people say that depending on God is a weak thing to do but when we realize how important He is to our lives, not depending on Him is like saying that you don't need water or sunlight to live. There is no other way but His way!
So, WHAT WOULD YOU DO WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO?
God knows what to do when you don't. Always ask for His wisdom and when you find that wisdom that applies to your situation, you can depend on His way.
Truly, we can not do anything on the things that already happened because it is what it is. But it is our ways now that can change the future. No matter how hard it is, just Keep Breathing.:0
Sunday, May 24, 2009
leaving a weak and fragile body
still immensed with the promises you made
in my own blood i bathe
long, sleepless nights
nothing can soothe my weary mind
cant have fair decisions
silence can never answer my questions
just want the honest truth
'cause this burden has to know its root
photo by: nubar.com
a night sky filled with swirling clouds
stars ablaize with their own luminescence and abright crescent moon
below the rolling hills of the horizon lies a small town
there are structures in the distant lit up in a warm glow of light
there is no blue without yellow and without orange
"starry starry night"
for they could not love you
but still your love was true
and when no hope was left in sight
you took your life as lovers often do
but i could have told you,
Vincent
this world was never meant for one
as beautiful as you
Labels: starry starry night, vincent
Monday, May 18, 2009
I've seen the movie "Enchanted" last night...after i removed my ex's picture on my table...kinda sad but...a relief..perhaps..
To make the story short, Giselle,an otherworldly princess who falls to Earth met Robert, a divorce lawyer..
With her as a "happily ever after girl" and him being "all things must come to an end, forever is impossible man"...Surely, there would be a clash of ideas between them.
The Disney movie,as expected, ended with a happily ever after with Robert realizing Giselle was his one great love. Putting mine and other girls' hopes up.
but..
Truly, we can never know if there's a true prince charming for us or just silly men who'll break our hearts after we've done everything.
Happily ever after???...Its rare but it can happen...
I know it will happen..
Labels: enchanted, happily ever after
Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Reframing the picture of the lonely and poor eaglets, the Mama Eagle was just at the nearby branch watching over them.
Sometimes, we fear that God has abandoned us. Looking only at the nest with the eaglets proves that our visions are limited. And we only see a small part of the entire scene.
In Deut. 32:7-12, Moses used the imagery to describe God. As eagles carry their young, God carries His people. He will never abandon us, He is watching so we don't have to fear the dangers around us.
Labels: abandon, Deut. 32:7-12, eagles
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep
I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
Friday, May 8, 2009
since it became "you and i"
i knew every morning will have a sigh.
you break my heart everytime you don't come
but glue it all with your face so calm.
so tell me, how can i hate you honey?
i hope that "you and i"
could be a fairytale i always wish for
we never really became that strong,
but look, we haven't travelled that long
for now, "you and i" are separating ways,
but still having our invisible string
we're heading on the same direction
no matter what they say
ill never stop loving you,
ill just stop living for you
"i" will live my life for the mean time
its upto "you" to decide.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
we can never know what lies ahead..
What if tomorrow never comes?
Is the love you've shown enough to last?
Have you danced like there's no tomorrow?
Have you kissed like there's no goodbye?
Have you laughed with tears in our eyes?
Have you prayed like no one's listening?
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you’re thinking of.
Lipsticks fade...
Flowers wither...
Life is temporary...
TOMORROW MIGHT NOT COME.